Mature Blogging

I have been reading over my past blog posts. I’ve come to realized two things:

  • I write really well when I’m hurt or learning
  • I was really hurting and learning back then

Does this mean that I’m not writing well now or that I’m not hurting and learning now? Well, the answer is yes and no. Because I’m human I am always learning, but I think the lessons now are not as profound as they were. Now I’m learning life’s best practices like “Oh look, there’s pitfall. How shall I avoid it?” rather than “Oh Shit! Where did that big-ass hole come from?” I can see the pitfalls now. Back then, I didn’t know what a pitfall was.

My writing is also from a different place now; a more grown up and adult place. I can deal with the hurts much better now; I know that I won’t die from them so my reaction is not so extreme. And that may not make for such exciting posts.

It also doesn’t help that my time isn’t a free as it was. I don’t have much free time to think let alone time to write. And when those juicy thoughts do come to mind, I often find that I’m too busy to write them down. Unfortunately, my older mind can’t hold onto them too long and they end up slipping away.

But as we know, life is an adventurous journey. At some point, I will be revisited by hurt and will have more learning to do. Till then, please enjoy my more mature but mellow posts.



I’m afraid they’ll think I’m smart

Covered MouthSo having guest writers on my blog isn’t working out quite like I hoped it would. Some people have expressed interest but somewhere between there and actually writing, things got lost. I must say that I am rather disappointed that they haven’t worked out.

I could assume that they all are too busy to take on such a task, but I’m a bit skeptical about that. I’m single mom with two kids, fully employed, and attending school… nah, time is not the issue. Perhaps they have nothing good to share? I know these people and converse with them regularly and they have plenty of good things to share. I’m often wowed by their depth of knowledge and unique insight. Nah, that’s not it either. The only thing I can think of is that they are afraid to share. Why? I’m not sure. Perhaps they don’t feel that what they know is worth sharing. Perhaps they’re afraid people will think they are smart. Perhaps they really don’t want to share their knowledge with the world. To all of these I say SHAME! Continue reading